{"id":69057,"date":"2025-08-25T12:33:00","date_gmt":"2025-08-25T12:33:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/?p=69057"},"modified":"2025-08-24T12:35:43","modified_gmt":"2025-08-24T12:35:43","slug":"my-own-private-wikipedia-katherine-mansfield","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/my-own-private-wikipedia-katherine-mansfield\/","title":{"rendered":"my own private wikipedia: katherine mansfield"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"p1\">MANSFIELD SPOKE OF her habit of keeping a journal as <em>being garrulous\u2026I must say nothing affords me the same relief.<\/em> Reading her journals presents a dilemma. Several times she directly addressed the readers\u2014her posterity\u2014in a taunting manner. I would prefer to distrust her. But it would be dishonest not to acknowledge the solace of reading them. Not having the exact language for the bleakness I felt, I devoured her words like thirst-quenching poison. Is it possible that one can be held hostage by someone else\u2019s words? What I underlined and reread: Are they her thoughts or mine?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"p1\">\u2018There is nought to do but WORK, but how can I work when this awful<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"p1\">weakness makes even the pen like a walking stick.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"p1\">There is something profound &amp; terrible in this eternal desire to establish contact.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"p1\">It is astonishing how violently a big branch shakes when a silly little<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"p1\">bird has left it. I expect the bird knows it and feels immensely arrogant.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"p1\">One only wants to feel sure of another. That\u2019s all.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"p1\">I realise my faults better than anyone else could realise them. I know exactly where I fail.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"p1\">Have people, apart from those far away people, ever existed for me? Or have they always failed me, and faded because I denied them reality? Supposing I were to die, as I sit at this table, playing with my indian paper knife\u2014what would be the difference. No difference at all. Then why don\u2019t I commit suicide?\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>stem: yiyun li<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>titel: to speak is to blunder but I venture<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>perspectief: There is no ladder out of any world; each world is rimless. \u2014Amy Leach, Things That Are<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>bron: dear friend, from my life I write to you in your life<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>mopw: meerstemmige encyclopedie<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>MANSFIELD SPOKE OF her habit of keeping a journal as being garrulous\u2026I must say nothing affords me the same relief. Reading her journals presents a dilemma. Several times she directly addressed the readers\u2014her posterity\u2014in a taunting manner. I would prefer to distrust her. But it would be dishonest not to acknowledge the solace of reading<a href=\"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/my-own-private-wikipedia-katherine-mansfield\/\" class=\"read-more\">Read more &raquo;<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2007,4694,974,1790],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69057"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=69057"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69057\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":69060,"href":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69057\/revisions\/69060"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=69057"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=69057"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=69057"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}