{"id":47621,"date":"2017-01-02T00:01:14","date_gmt":"2017-01-02T00:01:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/?p=47621"},"modified":"2017-03-13T20:26:04","modified_gmt":"2017-03-13T20:26:04","slug":"89-jess-glynne-take-me-home","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/89-jess-glynne-take-me-home\/","title":{"rendered":"89. jess glynne, take me home"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href =\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=2ebfSItB0oM\">Take Me Home<\/a> (youtube)<\/p>\n<p>When I wrote this song I was fighting with myself, trying to understand why I was so broken, why I had been left and was hurting so badly, why I felt like I had lost something that I would never have again and why I felt like it was all my fault. I felt like I was never going to be happy again. I signed my record deal and my dreams were coming true but the person I loved wasn&#8217;t there and it didn&#8217;t hide the fact that my soul was unbalanced. <\/p>\n<p>I wrote this song when I was angry and nothing felt right. I didn&#8217;t know how to get past the emptiness I was feeling. Once I wrote it, I put it to bed and didn&#8217;t listen to it for months and months and I slowly started to take on my life with a different perspective. My friend said to me give yourself space and time and it&#8217;s true, that&#8217;s all I needed. I was reminded of who I was as a person by someone who cared so much and wouldn&#8217;t let me break. <!--- I was given an opportunity to make an album and have a career in doing what I love, which is something I had worked so hard for, for so many years, and I wasn't going to let a broken heart defeat me. Hope through heartbreak was my new perspective on life. I re-visited this song and edited it. I changed it from one about me feeling sorry for myself and a person who didn't even deserve that much from me, to one about the person who caught me before I hit the ground and made me believe in myself again. This song was written to you. Not to the person who broke me in so many ways but the person who helped save me from drowning in something that wasn't worth drowning in. This song is now about being grateful and taking advice from the people who care, and who are there for you when you are in need. So thank you.  I wanted to share this version of the video because this is all this song really needed to show. I was naked and alone in a room with a camera, bare, fragile and empty. There was a time when I was all of this and couldn't have felt any worse in myself. When I stood there and sang this song on the day we made the video, stripped of everything, I was reminded of all that I had gone through. I couldn't have been prouder of how far I have come and I couldn't have been more grateful for the people surrounding me in my life. Jo'lene had this idea for Take Me Home and it couldn't be more perfect, I can normally picture how I want things to go for my videos but for this one I couldn't and she could. Both Jo'lene and Declan made this video and took full creative control of something that I was incapable of envisioning because it was so personal. I can't thank you both enough for something that represents both me and my song so superbly. To the person who told me time would heal me, this song is for you. ---><\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>De kat ligt eindelijk, eindelijk, na een jaar niet, naast me op bed, slaapt op het andere hoofdkussen, heeft zichzelf opgerold tot een bolletje zodat ze haar neus in zichzelf kan duwen, wat mij lijkt kriebelen (al dat haar!) maar haar niet, ze <em>is<\/em> haar. Bang voor vuurwerk en de hond beneden en uitgeput. <\/p>\n<p>2017. <\/p>\n<p>Ik luister naar Caroline Myss, ik lees Katherine Mansfield, ik luister naar Jess Glynne. <\/p>\n<p>Dit nummer, de tekst, doet me denken aan iemand, of nee, wat ze schrijft over het schrijven van dit nummer, doet me denken aan iemand. <em>Caught before I hit the ground.<\/em> Jess Glynne zegt het mooier: engelen vallen zelf niet, ze vangen jou op. Waarschijnlijk projectie. Maar goed, what is there to project without the light? <\/p>\n<p>H. brengt me koffie en zwijgt en gaat een boek lezen. What else is there to wish for? Honger. Oude oliebollen, op oudjaarsavond onaangeroerd, de volgende ochtend, onaangeroerd. Afwasborstel vol koude witgele korrels na kaasfondu, smerig als je een koffiekop wil afwassen. Je kan die borstel weggooien. De dingen symbolisch zien geeft me een nieuwe taal. <\/p>\n<p>Don&#8217;t get it right, search for truth, zegt Caroline. Wissel &#8216;soul&#8217; niet in voor &#8216;safety&#8217;. Als het niet moeilijk is, don&#8217;t even bother.  <\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s all in you, je doet het zelf, maar dat weet je niet, omdat je je waardeloos voelt als iemand weggaat, niet goed genoeg, afgewezen. Het kind wil opgepakt worden. <em>Will you take me home?<\/em> Dus ja, ik wens iedereen heart break toe: my god, those defences&#8230; <\/p>\n<p>Journaling: record your journey. <!--- Morgen tennissen met iemand die \u2013 denk ik, vermoed ik \u2013 ook haar ziel zoekt. ---><\/p>\n<p>Journaling: de discipline ervan (&#8216;elke dag&#8217;) heeft te maken met het woord discipel, it will teach you something. <\/p>\n<p><!--- Myss heeft een hekel aan perfectionisten, perfectionisme, vermoedelijk omdat ze er zelf een is. ---><\/p>\n<p><!--- carolyn myss The role of journaling\nKeeping a regular journal is a crucial part of the learning process, because it allows you to maintain a written record of your journey within that will help you review your progress from time to time. Both \u201cjournal\u201d and \u201cjourney\u201d derive from the French root, jour, meaning \u201cday,\u201d and, so, your journal is your account of your day-by-day journey of inner transformation. But the act of journaling is itself part of the learning and healing process. ---><\/p>\n<p><!--- Wrapped up, so consumed by all this hurt\nIf you ask me, don't know where to start\nAnger, love, confusion\nRoads that go nowhere\nI know that somewhere better\n'Cause you always take me there\n\nCame to you with a broken faith\nGave me more than a hand to hold\nCaught before I hit the ground\nTell me I'm safe, you've got me now\n\nWould you take the wheel\nIf I lose control?\nIf I'm lying here\nWill you take me home?\n\nCould you take care of a broken soul?\nWill you hold me now?\nOh, will you take me home?\nOh, will you take me home?\nOh, will you take me home?\nOh, will you take me home?\nOh, will you take me home?\n\nHold the gun to my head, count 1, 2, 3\nIf it helps me walk away then it's what I need\nEvery minute gets easier\nThe more you talk to me\nYou rationalize my darkest thoughts\nYeah, you set them free\n\nCame to you with a broken faith\nGave me more than a hand to hold\nCaught before I hit the ground\nTell me I'm safe, you've got me now\n\nWould you take the wheel\nIf I lose control?\nIf I'm lying here\nWill you take me home?\n\nCould you take care of a broken soul?\nOh, will you hold me now?\nOh, will you take me home?\nOh, will you take me home?\nOh, will you take me home?\nOh, will you take me home?\n\n[3x]\nYou say space will make it better\nAnd time will make it heal\nI won't be lost forever\nAnd soon I wouldn't feel\nLike I'm haunted, oh, falling\n\nWould you take the wheel\nIf I lose control?\nIf I'm lying here\nWill you take me home?\n\nCould you take care of a broken soul?\nOh, will you hold me now?\nOh, will you take me home?\nOh, will you take me home?\nOh, will you take me home?\nOh, will you take me home?\nOh, will you take me home, home?\nOh, will you take me home?\nOh, will you take me home? ---><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Take Me Home (youtube) When I wrote this song I was fighting with myself, trying to understand why I was so broken, why I had been left and was hurting so badly, why I felt like I had lost something that I would never have again and why I felt like it was all my<a href=\"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/89-jess-glynne-take-me-home\/\" class=\"read-more\">Read more &raquo;<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1714,10],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47621"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=47621"}],"version-history":[{"count":72,"href":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47621\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":49235,"href":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47621\/revisions\/49235"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=47621"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=47621"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.imhd.nl\/log\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=47621"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}